How to Talk About What We Can’t Talk About, But Need to Talk About
Without great communication, our relationships suffer. Sometimes our wounds collide in such a way that we hit a communication roadblock. One of us has an intense need to talk about something. The other can’t bear hearing about it. It doesn’t have to be this way. Learn the secret to good communication skills in a relationship.
As you read this story, think about how you and your partner run into communication difficulties and how you could change the focus of your communication to the underlying wounds and fears that are being triggered.
Jane and Steve
Meet Jane and Steve. Jane was worried about how her partner Steve took care of everyone in the world except himself, including his health. He seemed weak to her in this area and it bothered her. She felt a burning desire to talk to him about this. She couldn’t stand being silent.
One night she brought it up, but Steve only heard what was wrong with him, how he wasn’t good enough. He felt ashamed, upset, angry, abandoned and sad. “Get me out of here,” his brain screamed.
Jane realized the conversation was going all-wrong and she felt frantic and bad. This isn’t what she wanted. She wanted him to understand what she was saying, to see what was wrong and change. Instead, he left saying he needed to be by himself to think.
“Oh God,” she thought, “What did I do? How do I deal with this?”
Jane and Steve have hit a roadblock. In this case, one of the party feels that they MUST express their feelings and what they see, and the other party feels that they MUST get away because they feel so hurt or trapped as a result. There is no space to talk. Both parties are caught in intense feelings and fears. Neither can move in any direction without a reaction, without bumping into a ghost from their past, or their partner’s.
When a couple finds themselves in this dynamic, stuffing feelings doesn’t work and isn’t the answer, nor does pushing the agenda. There is only one way out that works.
Acknowleging their wounds
Jane says to Steve (or vice versa), “We are really struggling talking about this. Lets talk about why this discussion is so hard for us and what it is bringing up for us.” Jane and Steve are no longer talking about the issue itself. Now they are talking about the minefield within which the issue resides.
Jane says further, “I grew up watching my parents behave in ways that was really painful for me. My mom never confronted my dad on how he ignored me. She babied him instead. She took care of him instead of me.
I couldn’t stand it. There was nothing I could do. I felt helpless and it hurt.
So when I watch you behave in certain ways, taking care of others instead of yourself (and therefore us), I am terrified. I feel turned off. I don’t know what to do. I am afraid you aren’t taking care of your health and I will lose you sooner.
Then when I can’t talk to you about what I see, I feel stuck. It also scares me because I want to be with you, but what if I get trapped? Trapped the way I felt as a kid with my parents. I don’t know how to talk to you and get you to understand me in a way that feels safe to you and I really want to. I don’t know how to be there for you and myself at the same time in this area.”
Steve thinks about this for a minute. He replies, “I need to know that you are not trying to change me, that you care about me the way I am. I have plenty of history around not being accepted, being put down, and being controlled so when we get into this area, I feel so hurt that I just want to run away. I feel unloved. I feel not good enough for you, or even for myself. It is such an awful feeling. How can I talk when it feels like you are criticizing me and I feel so horrible about myself?”
The underlying triggers
Steve and Jane are not talking about the issue of “You don’t take care of yourself.” Instead, they are talking about the issue of, “It is really hard to talk to you when I love you, but what I have to say will hurt you. I am scared of you reacting and being hurt and leaving.” And they are talking about, “It’s really hard to talk when I love you and am scared of losing you but I feel criticized, not good enough, and think I am not accepted by you.”
Steve and Jane need to talk about how difficult it is to talk about this subject, rather than the issue itself of Steve’s caretaking of others. By first learning to talk about what is getting triggered in their communication, they will develop new communication skills and opening the path to eventually talking about the issue of Steve’s caretaking
Getting more vulnerable
The conversation continues. Jane says, “When I try to talk about this with you, you get hurt and I get really scared. I don’t want to hurt you. I want you to know how much I care about you and how much I want us to be able to talk.” Steve says, “When you try to talk about this with me, I feel hurt and want to leave and I don’t want to leave you.”
They talk more about their fear of both losing each other and of being trapped in something that is not good for them. They talk about how this issue is so “hot” for both of them that they cannot talk about it. They talk about their histories and where these intense feelings are coming from.
As Steve and Jane talk, they are opening up space around their wounds and fears. They are bringing in some fresh air and getting to know and understand each other better. They are learning new things about each other and themselves. Steve doesn’t take care of himself because he doesn’t fully value himself. He’s learned to value his ability to give to others instead. Jane pushes to be seen, because she was so unseen as a child.
Steve and Jane discover that they have a way to communicate that they did not use to have. They both understand why they are reacting so strongly to the other. They understand what they are afraid of.
This is what they need to talk about first, before they can ever get to the actual “issue,” because the issue is embedded in their wounds. Both come to understand and have empathy for the other. Both become more able to see themselves and talk about who they are and how they impact each other.
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